Scare and Unconfident

Although we been registered marriage, but I still feel uncomfortable and scare when he say he want to go out with friends. Why this feeling keep around me??!! I am so hate this kind of feeling!! I don't want to think negatively actually but I can't control myself of thinking of like this! arhh.. who can save me? really sad and down at the moment : (

All about money money and money!! He want to stay in hostel to save petrol fee, but still going out with friends for eating and movie, what for to stay there? Can you tell me? or maybe in some other day meet somebody out there, do I need to worry this? Since there are some couples outside separate with each other....who can I talk to? feeling very down and stress!!

I hate myself why so early to falling love with him, is too early maybe..he is my first lover and now become my last lover...I never ever together with other guys before and so does he....is that our fault?? not to try ourself into the 'flower world' before decided to get together till the end of our life....??is that??

Can I be more generous to treat in this case???????

Life's like a candle

Yes, gonna travel to Korea soon! excited !! But actually my dream place is Japan!Previously keep listening to my friends say that wanna to be exchange student to other country, with that I am also consider about this planning. However, due to financial problem I have to give up this opportunity.

After finish last trimester, I keep thinking whether I should futher study to Master program??is really hard to make this decision..so many things to worry.
I am wonder : am I eligible to do my master?is it difficult?I should make it part time or full time?how is the tuition fees I am gonna to pay?loan again?
too much worries appear in my mind...is really frustrated..

为了什么而生活？

时光飞逝。。一去不回头。。应该珍惜当下。。
我的生活枯燥、乏味，好像没什么可以回忆的。。小的时候最好因为没烦恼，快快乐乐的过着每一天。长大了烦恼也就增加了。。每天在想为了什么而生活？自己、家人、另一半、朋友、钱。

这个星期二刚开始到学校工作，第一天就适应了。。毕竟是自己的学校嘛。。比较熟悉。。我呢，负责为学生们登记car sticker, verification form, academic transcript 等等。。。
如果有学生的话就会忙得不可开销，连喝口水的时间也没有！:( 不过在那里时间过得很快。。转眼放饭了，转眼又放工了。。没有什么压力咯。。。

哪是我又一百万。。。。。那有多好，你说是不是~！！